I like to be alone. Im mentally incapable to be around people for too long because my attention span is shorter than a toddlers. Imagination & Dreaming - thats all that pretty much runs through my mind 24/7. Im a thinker. I think about every and anything, ideas, plans, stories even images. I cant tell you what I want to be when Im older because its something different every hour. A image or thought will set off in my mind and bam ! I have a new career choice that will only last 60 minutes until something else has intrigued me. Relationships? Im never emotionally invested because when Im with someone Im too busy counting down the minutes until Im alone. Im not talented whats so ever, I couldnt draw, write, sing or act if it was to save me. So what does that leave me with? My mind. It always come back to my mind. Maybe thats why
I love myself so much? Because I take comfort inside my head, where theres no judgement, hate, pity or negativity. In my mind no one can tell me Im wrong, ugly, talentless or even a waste. Being alone is the most comforting thing for me but then Im constantly tossing between being alone and being lonely. My dilemma. Loving to be alone and and hating feeling lonely.